Recent happenings

I realize how I really would not have fit at the party that my best friend recently hosted. I mean, looking at the photos that were posted, I feel like if I had been there I wouldn’t have had fun and would’ve been left out. I couldn’t go because I had to celebrate Chinese New Year with my family, but otherwise I would’ve had to go because, well, it is my best friend. 

I found this amazing link on Pinterest showing me how to make an infinity scarf with arm knitting and I’ve made two (one for my mom, one for me) and they’re honestly so good looking and super comfy and warm. I love it and I plan on making one in white because the one I have right now is dark grey. This is the link to the fantastic page. I actually used 10 stitches instead of 12 like her and I think it’s plenty thick enough 🙂 

I also tried sewing last night, but it didn’t really work out well and I really need to learn how to work that machine. It’s a Singer–are those good machines? I also purchased an amazing cute shirt that looks like a jean jacket and a cute, rather summer-y dress for my semi. Both were purchased at Sirens.

I was helping out at the SPCA today and had this new cat in named Sylvester. Ah and he looked exactly like the cartoon! He even had those wisps of hair that stood out at the cheeks like Sylvester. And he was adorably affectionate waiting for his Tweety Bird. And then there were these 3 kittens that were like the Aristocats. There was one that was white, one that was black and another one that was orange and they were all in the same room as each other and as I believe, they were found together. I loved them and they were all so sweet and cuddly. 

Oh and today I also found some salted dark chocolate which is amazing because I’m a sucker for anything that is salted chocolate. I love it. Honestly, my future husband just has to buy me that and I’d be happy.

And because I’ve been eating chocolate I’m feeling like I should exercise. Ugh, I really do need to start exercising otherwise I will one day become fat. 

Sewing my thoughts together

I don’t know at what age you start wearing heels. When is it? 18? 20? 24? If someone knows this, please let me know, because I can’t wait for the time when I can start wearing heels and buy shoes and just basically buy the clothing that I really want to wear. I want to be able to wear dresses almost like daily and not be judged by people surrounding me on why I constantly wear dresses when they’re in jeans or leggings. Really, I do believe that gossip girl has inspired me. I sometimes forget at how beautiful the clothes that they wear are and I wish I could afford or pull off one of the looks that they do. I mean there are dresses that look so unappealing when they’re on the hanger and then the person wears them and voila! It’s been changed to an astonishing dress or outfit that makes me want to wear it (great advertising, huh? But I would never be able to pull of an outfit as well as them).

And thing about confidence that I’ve noticed is that I feel a lot better and more social and all that when I’m wearing an outfit that I like and feel great in. I think that fashion and clothing really has an effect on the way you act. It can really change your mood and everything and I love that about it. It’s just something that I’d love to pursue.

I really need to learn how to sew. I mean, I picked up knitting and now I can knit myself a headband and a bow and scarf, but I want to be able to sew fabric together to make an outfit. It is my plan this year to learn how to sew, yup. That is my new years resolution as of  today because I really want to get my fashion sense and style going, because all I seem to be doing is following the trends of the people around me.

Done exams! I had my last one today and I feel so relaxed now because I’ve got nothing to worry about. I can read whatever I want, draw, knit, do basically whatever without worrying about the next exam. Unfortunately because of the snow day I had my exam today instead of on Monday, which was kind of horrible, but whatever. It’s over and done with and I cannot be happier.

Gossiping on the couch

2/3 exams finished! My last one, which is science, is tomorrow which I should really be studying for, but I have the oddest technique. I can only study at night, the hours right before I go to bed and then once I’m done I have to sleep right away. No reading books, no watching tv, no going on the internet. I might text people for a bit before I turn off the lights, but otherwise I can’t do anything else. Right after my french exam today all I’ve done is go online, tried to write, knit and drawn some pictures while I’ve been watching nonstop episodes of Gossip Girl, season 1.

I’ve got this weird mind where when I think at home it builds up my confidence and then when I get to school and in public I completely forget about my advice to myself. I’m just realizing (well not just that I could be so much more outgoing and all that with people if I just didn’t care. If I didn’t care what people thought of me. But that’s so hard to remember and that’s a huge problem. I mean, I keep reminding myself that I’m most likely never going to encounter these people in high school ever again. There’s a chance, yes, but not extremely likely. God, and I’m being a horrible person because I want to make new friends because some of the friends I have aren’t exactly fun to hang out with. And my best friend has friends and a boyfriend who she hangs out with all the time and she always takes me along with them, but it’s not the same because I don’t know them as well as she does. Then again, it was because of her that I met my other extremely good friend, so maybe that will happen again.

Really times are so stressful right now when they shouldn’t be. Oh, and I really want to get a job. I already have one, but I only work once a week and I’d love to get another one because I’m short on money (kind of). And I want to be busier. I had this one day during the break where I was constantly doing something. There was never any time when I wasn’t doing something and now I understand my best friend. She always has to be doing something. She hates having no plans or not doing anything and she always has to be hanging out with someone or just a packed schedule to say the least. And then that one day I completely realized how she felt. I was at her house actually the day before and I slept over at her house. That packed day I left her house around noon and went hiking in the woods with my mom, brother, aunt and uncle for a while. Got back, ate and drank some tea while discussing books I believe. After we went swimming (great exercising this whole day, yes!) and had dinner after. Baking an apple pie was next up after eating dinner (which, btw, was my favourite kind of fish) and then we watched my favourite movie, Super 8 and went to bed well after midnight. Usually I come home and spend the day doing mindless things. Mostly wasting it on the internet, tumblr and facebook will honestly make me fat and unhealthy. It’s not healthy! And I’d like to stop it and do something useful. I mean, knitting took a bit of the useless out of my hobbies, however I knit in front of the tv, so that kind of backfires.

Oh and since I am watching Gossip Girl while I am writing this I’m getting a huge urge to do fashion. Love fashion and I would totally get into the industry (and the art industry), but I’m not extremely creative and basically, I copy things. Oh another reason for me wanting to get a job. To get enough money to actually shop.