Sewing my thoughts together

I don’t know at what age you start wearing heels. When is it? 18? 20? 24? If someone knows this, please let me know, because I can’t wait for the time when I can start wearing heels and buy shoes and just basically buy the clothing that I really want to wear. I want to be able to wear dresses almost like daily and not be judged by people surrounding me on why I constantly wear dresses when they’re in jeans or leggings. Really, I do believe that gossip girl has inspired me. I sometimes forget at how beautiful the clothes that they wear are and I wish I could afford or pull off one of the looks that they do. I mean there are dresses that look so unappealing when they’re on the hanger and then the person wears them and voila! It’s been changed to an astonishing dress or outfit that makes me want to wear it (great advertising, huh? But I would never be able to pull of an outfit as well as them).

And thing about confidence that I’ve noticed is that I feel a lot better and more social and all that when I’m wearing an outfit that I like and feel great in. I think that fashion and clothing really has an effect on the way you act. It can really change your mood and everything and I love that about it. It’s just something that I’d love to pursue.

I really need to learn how to sew. I mean, I picked up knitting and now I can knit myself a headband and a bow and scarf, but I want to be able to sew fabric together to make an outfit. It is my plan this year to learn how to sew, yup. That is my new years resolution as of  today because I really want to get my fashion sense and style going, because all I seem to be doing is following the trends of the people around me.

Done exams! I had my last one today and I feel so relaxed now because I’ve got nothing to worry about. I can read whatever I want, draw, knit, do basically whatever without worrying about the next exam. Unfortunately because of the snow day I had my exam today instead of on Monday, which was kind of horrible, but whatever. It’s over and done with and I cannot be happier.

How confusing

Well I’ve started this blog, which I explained in my ‘Me’ page, to document my journeys as I make my way through my teen years. Being in high school there is the huge problem of ‘what do you want to do when you’re older?’. The problem for me is that my answer is always ‘I don’t know’. All my best friends seem to know what they want to pursue after high school. They want to become doctors, surgeons, go into the military etc. and it seems like I’m the only one who doesn’t have a clue.

I love reading and writing and it’s always been a passion of mine. I’d love to publish a book, and perhaps I will one day, but I feel like my ideas and writing is overall, adequate. It’s not a stand-out talent that I have and I can tell because my English teachers don’t ask me to enter contests and whatnot even though they do give me rather high marks on my stories. I guess they don’t see me as that, but they could be wrong about me (I hope).

I love art and drawing, however, just like my writing, my skill in the arts isn’t amazing. It’s nothing that people marvel over and believe that I could succeed well in it. It’s just an average skill that I learned from classes and that I take part of when I’m bored or in the mood to create something.

I love all the arts and culture and stuff, but I also love learning about the world. I like politics and government and I love learning about the hidden secrets in between countries that are unveiled just through talking. I just really love how countries interconnect because it seems like some huge fictional story to me, which is weird because most people wouldn’t see it as that.

And at the end there is my constant love for animals. I love them and I’ve recently started volunteering at the OSPCA in my town. I love being there. It makes me feel important and I love the atmosphere. It reminds me of a hospital actually. I like how everybody wears scrubs and they have key cards to get into the back room which leads to the veterinary spay/neuter clinic where they keep a ton of animals that aren’t ready to be adopted. I’ve been taken to the back rooms to get towels and food and all that for the animals, but I like the atmosphere back there.
Not only that, but I feel so important at the SPCA. I like how I’m relied on to clean up after the animals and introduce them to customers and all of that. And my supervisor, she’s teaching me (taught me I suppose, but it takes a while to remember) how to work the computers so that I can set up adoptions without her having to be in charge of doing it, which is actually a huge responsibility. So I’ve been looking into possibly becoming a vet. I mean, it’s a lot of hard work. I’ve been researching applications and all that and it is so competitive and I’m scared of that. I don’t want it to be so hard! But I suppose if things weren’t hard then you wouldn’t get a sense of accomplishment anyways. My marks aren’t horrible, but they aren’t the best. I want them to be better, but of course I suppose, comparing them to others they’re not too bad. Science, English, Math are the most important and my marks in them so far are above 90 (fingers crossed because I have my exams tomorrow! Ah, hope I didn’t jinx it).

I should actually be studying so I’m going to get off the computer and do that. Yup.